They call me Alex
Grafic design student.
Mexican.
I'm building myself.
AM forever
Twitter: avalcalaBanA
Ask me anything.
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Sorry.
Mental health is fucking difficult and hard. I’ve been in different positions. From
The point that I can’t even make myself get out of bed, or fucking watch a movie without thinking about everything and worry about everything and feel sorry for myself. To the point that I’m watching someone that I really love struggling with it and can’t help them, tbh I don’t even know how to help them, I can’t even help myself how the fuck am I supposed to be helpful to someone else? Lately I’ve been pushing myself down, take things easy, speak my mind, trying to feel something because lately I can’t feel a damn thing. It’s been a month, and fucking month where I cant stop thinking about you, without doing, saying or seeing some kind of things and instantly you coming to my mind… the more I think about what happen the more I think I know that we would never be together. Is not that I’m a bitch or a cunt, I know that I was truthful to you, after two year of never opening to people, not trusting anyone, I did open myself to you and I tried it so hard, I trusted you… but I guess trust should be earn and not assume. I know my mistake was walking away, walking again of the frustration I felt when I knew you were depressed and you didn’t let me help you, I don’t blame you I know how hard it is to deal with that. I felt so bad that I couldn’t take your pain away, and that you push me everytime I tried to help you, no by taking your pain away, I just wanted to understand you, hear you, and let you know that you weren’t alone… but I failed, I took distance thinking that it was the best and thinking that you might wanted that… but deep inside me I know I was a fucking coward, a piece of shit that didn’t stuck around for you, and theres not a day that I don’t spend regretting that…., I’m sorry that I disappoint you, I’m sorrry that you couldn’t leave your head in my shoulder for some comfort, I’m sorry I took my distance, I’m really sorry that you couldn’t trust me, I’m sorry I wasn’t enough for you.
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OKAY so I saw this a few days ago and was like “whatever” but then I smashed my phone in a car door, had to clean up some dead baby bunnies in my yard, and have just generally NOT had a good week. I’m fucking spooked and I’m reblogging this twice to get the universe to stop.
I ignored this too and then i got kicked out of my house. Also reblogging twice.
Why am I superstitious 😧
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I hate feeling that nothing is wrong but also nothing is right. Like ???? I just have so many things on my mind and I can’t control or stop how fast I’m thinking or feeling. I need to get out of my head this is just fucking killing me. I know I should be enjoying my life but I just can’t and I hate myself so much because of that. I wanna me grateful about all the things I have and the people That im happily sorrunded but I just still feel bad. A piece of shit that has no idea what is doing with life and just letting things go by…. I just really want this to fucking stop.
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